endurium
 

1) Twosouls Avenue (7,900 Kb)
2) One of Many (4,028 Kb)
3) Gentle Susan (4,934 Kb)
4) Adrift (4,426 Kb)
5) One Green Rose (4,970 Kb)
6) What Took Your Sight (3,398 Kb)
7) Wayfare (8,566 Kb)
8) Slowtime (1,618 Kb)
9) Wake (5,132 Kb)
10) Baptism Gnostique (4,276 Kb)
11) Callun Gath (5,878 Kb)
12) Presence of the Absence (7,176 Kb)
13) Through (3,593 Kb)
14) Alone (2,817 Kb)

   
 

endurium is a simmering collection of gothic and darkwave textures that, together, create a longing landscape of emotions. Released in 2001, endurium represented a new phase in Paul Ramey's sonic explorations, and was received with major acclaim by critics of the genre. endurium received special attention at the 2002 Lexington Music and Film Festival, Lexington, KY. In addition, One Green Rose was chosen as the soundtrack to a short film appearing on VH1 in 2004. The instrumental montage at the beginning of this same song also was featured in 2004 independent film Hamlet, in which Paul also played the title role.

 

Lyrics
All lyrics
©2001 Paul Ramey.

Twosouls Avenue
Whisper gently, your thoughts on love, on life.
Here within, I hold you sometimes.
Walk in shadows. Internal. In dreams. My dreams.
Vacant. This bedspace...tonight.
Absent. No trace. My fright. Your shadow.
In dreams we whisper every thought, we do not miss what we have got.
In my head, just a fantasy in my head.
Where are you...?

One of Many
Crystal eyes, the flesh in fact is real. I don't know why I want to cry, I'm longing for you still.
Just this side of heaven, almost within my reach. I should be happy that I'm a sandgrain on your beach.
Crystalize, realization wash over me, I'm just one of many in a bitter sea.
I find my longing slowly rise, as I wade in hopelessness. I still find myself floating on that single kiss.
But I'm just a sandgrain on your beach.
A single hope lies inside. Don't let me fade off with the tide.
Hold me to you, bring me back like the wave. Give me something I don't feel I have to save...

Gentle Susan
Rising waves, crashing. Clouds rain down, splashing.
And look at you, holding on... Look at you, you're still holding on to him.
Crowds drown out, talking. Can't lose yourself, walking.
And look at you, holding on... Look at you, you're still holding on to him.
Oh, Gentle susan, you almost had him that time.
Oh, Gentle Susan, won't you ever learn?

What Took Your Sight
Turn your head softly and look away. What you had is fading like today.
Who do you think you are? Rasputin or the Czar?
It came in the night and took your sight.
You want so much somebody to know your pain.
Want someone to talk to in the rain.
She showed but she did not come. All you saw were reruns.
Did you ever not believe her? I guess you should.
I guess you should have...

Wake
Wake with open eyes. surprise, no more lies. All the questions why, will die.
Take a look around. Surround with wall and ground. Found an earthen mound to pound.
See...
Light, extinquish night. Your sight will make it right.
Pull back those sheets and fight, or close your eyes and stay the night.
Dare the break of day. Some say decay's the only way.
What a thing to say. Both chaos and order have their way.
See...
I talk in my sleep - Spiritus anima confutat.
I wake in heavenly showers, bathe in heavenly showers.
There is a breathing above my breath, and beyond death, the second breath.
My second wind, my Wunderkind, with open eyes, open eyes, open eyes.

How do you know just what you know?
And if you knew, how would you know?

Presence of the Absence
Deep in the shadows, always moving, never stopping,
Is the presence of the absence of the filling of the void.
Take your breath away, I am still breathing it.
Don't say what you say, I'm still believing it.
Let me down you may, I'm not conceiving it.
There's no other way, but still I still search for it.
Here...
Cold light of day, the coming of morning, I scan for your face, but I'm out of your mind.
I've been meaning to take myself out of your shadow.
Don't know where you keep me, though. I'm hopelessly scattered.
And blowing like ashes from flames never burning, my heart always yearning for one taste of you.
As your face turns to mine, your brief smile is an echo, a glimpse of a past I once had with you...
Here...

Through
Once, long ago, I spent a lifetime with you.
Now we're through.
Just yesterday, we loved, loved just like lovers do.
Now we're through.
Once I had dreams. Such broken, such useless things.
Now we're through, and it's all I can do,
Just to get through.

Alone
(CD hidden track)
Here I am alone tonight.
In my room. In the darkness. No one knows. Alright.
Still I must cling to hope from the depth of my soul,
For a better tomorrow.



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